I not only do not enjoy seeing myself on the screen, but I don’t even see myself any more when I look in the mirror at home. Even the pleasures of a woman’s vanity, the fun of ‘prinking’ are mine no longer. It has all become mechanical, impersonal, and boring. I look in the mirror, and I know there’s a face there. And it’s probably mine. I know that I must go through the motions of pulling it together, and I do, but I have no personal pleasure or interest in the process.